Most of the ministry that pastors do isn't in public and it doesn't make it into worship on Sunday morning - especially when that ministry is with families. This is where you'll find writing and resources from a parenting pastor, who works with youth and families and occasionally preaches too.
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Thursday, January 27, 2022
Seize Joy Where It May Be Found
"What if I was in Sophie's body and Sophie was in my body?"
Sophie is our big, goofy dog. I am not a dog person. I did not particularly want a dog, but my family wore me down and I'll admit, she's a very good girl. Like all dogs, she loves treats, gets very excited about going for walks, snarfs up any crumb that falls on the floor, goes nuts for a squeaky toy and licks her butt. She was doing this last one as I was asked the question above by my six-year-old.
I said, because what six-year-old doesn't like to talk about butts, "Do you think you would lick your butt like Sophie does?"
"What? No!"
"Would you wait at my feet while I'm cooking, just in case I drop something?"
That one he thought about a little more. I started laughing, thinking of how silly it would be if my child acted like a dog and if Sophie started acting like a human child. Together we giggled as we thought of the different scenarios and ways that it would be funny and ridiculous to experience a human/dog body swap.
Even in the best of times, I have a personality that tends more toward curmudgeonliness than the whimsy. I lean more toward critique than appreciation. More staid than silly. Even more so than usual, in the interminable days of the pandemic, I find myself struggling to engage in delight and gratitude and affirmation.
To fend off the panic and sorrow, I turn the radio off when another doom-laden news item is being reported on. I try and sometimes succeed in not being entirely critical and demanding with my children and spouse. I use screens for escape. I get outside. Still, I haven't found anything that truly feeds and nurtures a sense of joy that is hard for me to come by at the best of times.
So I was surprised to find myself not only enjoying the ridiculousness of our little flight of imagination but returning to that moment in my mind all the next day. That moment - and it truly was only a short interaction - got me thinking about how I can seize moments of joy when the Spirit presents me the opening. I could have said, "Oh, you're so silly, Dogs can't be people." and that would have been that.
I did have that inclination a day or so later when I was asked, "What would you wish for if you could wish for anything." Just at that moment, the conflict in the Ukraine was being reported and true to form, my first thought was, How can I choose between world peace and the end to the climate crisis and for the pandemic to be over and, and, and... So I said something boring and dumb like, that all people would care about each other and the earth.
But then I backtracked. I said, "But really, if it's just for myself, I wish for a swimming pool."
"Where would we put a swimming pool?"
"How about on the roof?"
And again, we were off. Imagining how we'd get to a pool on the roof, deciding that actually a hot tub would be better in this weather, that definitely we'd some very good floaty toys.
"God’s Spirit blows wherever it wishes. You hear its sound, but you don’t know where it comes from or where it is going. It’s the same with everyone who is born of the Spirit." These moments when I let myself seize the tiny moments of joy were a gift of that same Spirit - blowing in unexpectedly.
I pray that you all may also find and seize the joy that the Spirit want to offer you
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Photo by Dominika Roseclay from Pexels
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Sunday, April 30, 2017
We Had Hoped...
| image: Daniel Bonnell, script: Amy Marie Epp |
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Last
Sunday on the way home from church I was listening to The Moth Story Hour on
KUOW and one of the storytellers was an Irish woman who came from a family of 6
sisters. Sisters who had learned how to be strong and courageous and
connected to each other by their father. When their dad died suddenly in
his early seventies and they were all in middle adulthood, the bond that they
thought was so strong between them began to unravel. Each of them
wondered how they were to go on being family, even being in the world without
the one who was always encouraging, teaching, leading, connecting them - even
as adults.
When
I heard that story on The Moth, I thought of the disciples on the road.
These two friends and followers who had lost a beloved. And not
only a beloved, but the one who tied their group together. The one who
showed them what it meant to be God’s children, who told them they were
beloved, who healed and served and ate with them, who was the center of their
community. And not only that - the one in whom they had hoped. A
people under occupation, they had a very real hope that Jesus was the leader
that would liberate them - finally - from occupying forces. Jesus’
leadership and charisma tied the disparate and diverse group of disciples
together
When
we read this story in Sunday school last week Madeleine suggested the image of
a bracelet in which the knot that holds everything together has come undone.
I saw it immediately. Each of the friend, followers, disciples a
bead or a knot held together by their beloved Jesus. And once his binding
presence is missing, they begin to scatter. Cleopas and his wife are
headed back home to Emmaus. They’ve left others in Jerusalem, confused by
a story of an empty tomb, a missing body and angels.
They
are bitterly disappointed. They grieve. They had hoped…
And
don’t we all. This is a beloved Easter story, I think in part because of
the details that allow us to identify with the disciples on the road. We
too have hoped. I’ve heard people experiencing infertility talk about the
bitterness of hoping and longing for a child only to be disappointed - not just
once but again and again. Perhaps a disease or mental illness we thought
we had seen the end of returns. We had hoped… Or the hope and
disappointment of broken relationship. Of love and trust betrayed.
It is kind of hope is the kind that comes with deep and long-lived
yearning. Perhaps - as in this case - even generations.
As
Jesus’ companions had hoped, we too place our hopes for political change in
individuals to see those hopes dashed.
Then
they meet Jesus on the road. But of course they don’t know it’s Jesus.
But as they tell him of their broken hope and he retells the story of
God’s people to them their hope begins to be re-woven. Story by story
from the torah and the prophets, he ties them back into the fabric of their community. When,
at the end they realize at the table that it is Jesus who has been with them
all along, they say to each other, “Were not our hearts burning inside us when
he was opening scripture to us on the road.” These stories remind them of
who and whose they are. Not a nation’s or a leader’s but God’s.
In
the Moth story about the sisters and their father, months after the funeral at
which the sisters have carried their father’s coffin together and put his body
to rest, one of the sisters gets a text message. It’s from her dad.
Or at least it’s from her dad’s number. It says, “I’m home now.
You can call on me any time.” Honestly, I get a little weepy just
thinking of it again, it was such a sweet story. The text was (probably)
some kind of glitch in the system, re-sending the last thing that her dad had
texted to her. But she took it as a prompt to connect again with her
sisters, to recount the message from beyond, to wonder together and remember
together whose they were and be reminded that the bonds of family could be
re-knotted in a way that had their father woven into the whole fabric.
Cleopas
and the other disciple, their hope for a Messiah has been disappointed.
Bitterly so. They will always be disappointed if they seek escape from
the tyrany of political oppression. Particularly if they’re waiting for
some kind of a political leader to overthrow or rebel against or out-politic
their occupiers. Their hope for a Messiah who walks along with them,
though, who explores God’s word together with them, who sits at a table with
them, though. That Messiah is totally present. And that Messiah is
present every time God’s people are gathered - walking, serving each other,
eating together, opening scripture with each other.
Our
experience of Jesus may most often happen in retrospect. It can be very
hard to see Jesus walking along beside us on the road when we are in the midst
of the grief and disappointment of hopes lost. And I don’t want to get
all “footprints” on you, but it is often when we reflect back on an experience
that we can say, “Didn’t my heart burn within me when such and such a thing
happened?”
The
two are compelled, when they realize who their walking buddy has been to turn
back to community. They realize that they have a hope of a different
nature. Hope for a different kind of freedom - and into an urgency to run back
to community and learn how to witness to each other, to continue the work of
the loving, healing, proclaiming Jesus, to weave themselves into a community
that makes Jesus presence known everywhere. I wonder if in our
disappointed hopes - particularly when they are hope tied up in political
figures or aspirations - we might do well to be reminded that we are knots more
securely tied into a string that God is continuing to weave together.
The
eye opening, get-back-on-the-road moment for the disciples came at the table.
A table, maybe something like this one before us. It came when
Jesus broke the bread and they shared it. Jesus known through a physical,
tangible thing like bread. In those look-back moments when we say, “Yes,
that way Jesus with me.” how often are they moments that a friend or companion
shared a meal, a kind word, a token of encouragement. Maybe they are when
reconciliation is found after a rift, in community gathered, in renewed
physical health or a new understanding and peace with physical decline. Around
a table.
Some of you may have seen the Heineken ad that’s
circulating on social media. It’s meant to tug at your heartstrings and
tear-ducts at it does. People ideologically opposite are tasked with
several challenges that they must complete together, then given a short survey
in which they describe themselves to the other person. Then they each
watch a video in which this partner whom they’ve been laboring and intimately
talking with talks candidly about their ideology.
Then they’re given an option - they can go on
their way, or they can sit down at the bar (which they’ve just put together)
and talk about their differences over a beer. A Heineken, of course.
Community built at a table. And in common
work. And in shared life. That sounds a lot like the body of Christ
to me.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Dust and Sand
This past Wednesday evening members of our congregation
worshiped together and were marked with ashes, a reminder that we are made of dust and that we return there.
We also heard and saw the pouring out of sand. We symbolically poured ourselves out before
our God and the sand became a symbol of cleansing, renewal and assurance as we
offered ourselves to God for forgiveness.
For the past seven years as I’ve worked with youth, sand has
not been a symbol of renewal or assurance.
It has instead been the counterpart of oil, as we share the sand and the oil
of our lives with each other. Where oil
is the anointed and assured presence of God with us, sand is the barrenness and
where we feel bereft. Sand represents the all-alone breadth of the wilderness.
This week my experience turned from the former to the
latter. On Wednesday I ran my fingers
through the sands of Ash Wednesday and on Friday I felt thrust into the
dusty sand of the desert. I learned that, although my body
had given no indication, had continued
giving me all the right (although uncomfortable) signals, I am no longer
pregnant. Probably for several weeks
now. Probably even as I announced the
news with joy.
I was shocked. I was
upset. I lay on the ultrasound table
alone and bereft and totally utterly thrust into the wilderness. And so Lent becomes something much different
than I had ever anticipated. It was going
to be a season of waiting and preparation and growth. It becomes a season of introspection and
discernment and grief, learning to hope and wondering what is next.
When Jesus went into the wilderness, he was driven there. He was thrust by the Holy Spirit. That entry too was not gentle. Although not in the Luke version of the story
that we read this morning, it is in the other Gospels that record this story that
he was waited on by angels. Our psalm, Psalm 91speaks of the angels that 'will bear you up.' In that psalm it is to God that the Psalmist turns for refuge. This season
of Lent I am looking to God’s providence and am grateful for the angels that
have already offered comfort, understanding and presence. I pour myself out to my Creator like
sand. I pray that I may find renewal.
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